
“I moved to England when I was 20. I worked and studied so much that I became exhausted and fell ill. I went back to Poland to recover and introspect. I realised I had many negative thoughts. I felt a strong need to get rid of them and decided to look for meditation classes.
One day, I met my childhood friend for coffee. Unlike me, she had always been a seeker. She told me she wanted to study psychology and was trying to find herself. I shared that my life was physically draining, I felt exhausted, had too many thoughts, and was looking for a place to start meditating.
As we were leaving the café, I glanced at the counter and saw some flyers advertising Sahaja Yoga. I picked up a few and laughed, saying to my friend, “Look, I just found it.”
But I didn’t have time to attend the Sahaja programme. I had college five days a week and worked six days, including the day of the programme. Then, something unexpected happened – a colleague at work became aggressive and pushed me. The incident was reported, and we were both suspended from work for a week.
I decided to use that time to go to Sahaja meeting. The moment I saw Shri Mataji’s picture, I knew I was in the right place. I became a Sahaja Yogini and never looked back.
My friend and I lost touch for a few years, but then I came across her profile on Facebook. She was living in Leamington Spa, near our Sahaja Yoga farm. We arranged to meet at a café, and she began sharing her story. Her seeking had led her to a cult that believed they were blessed by the Holy Ghost and could speak in tongues.
Suddenly, she grabbed my hand and started speaking in a strange, incomprehensible language. I quickly withdrew my hand, feeling uneasy. I stayed for a few more minutes out of politeness, then left for the farm.
There was a Puja at the farm that day, but as soon as I arrived, I sensed something was wrong with me. Something sat on my Sahasrara, blocking the flow of vibrations. My Kundalini was working hard but couldn’t get past the obstruction.
I was overcome with a profound sadness unlike anything I had ever experienced. I knew it wasn’t me – I’m a naturally joyful person. Concerned, I called a Sahaja friend and told her about it. She worked on me vibrationally, I recited Devi Kavach and used the candles but nothing helped. Despairing, I said to my friend, “I don’t think I can go on living with this sadness.”
That night, I prayed to Shri Mataji for help and went to sleep. The next morning, I woke up with a clear thought: I should ask Shri Mataji to give Realisation to the soul that had attached itself to me. I prayed to Mother for the lost soul’s Realisation, and just like that, it left me. I was back to my normal, cheerful self again!”
Kamila – Warsaw, Poland